More Indianapoils

So I got back from Indiana yesterday with Orchestra. It had it's fun parts. Um. First of all, the busses came the wrong morning to pick us up.. so we either had to leave at eight that night, or have our parents drive us to LAX at 2 the next morning. So I just stayed in a hotel with Sara in LA and we took a shuttle to the airport. Then on the plane I sat with Dan & Elisa. It was fun. We watched Stomp. It was really cool. Then when we got to Denver Sara and I watched a movie then fell asleep. We had like a two hour layover.. two or three hour. Then I slept on Dan the plane ride to Indiana, and so did Elisa. Then we get there and take busses to our hotel. And I kind of forget what we did. But The food there was mostly crap. Occasionally it was good. But whatever. I mostly hung out with Tim, Brian, Jeff, Jessica, Mallory(occasionally), and Amanda. Oh yes, and Jake. Bass girl and Cameron got in trouble alot. It was funny. Um, we had to walk everywhere. It was freaking snowing. And it was freaking cold. Then I tried to talk to Jack. Just because I'm the dumb obsessed ex girlfriend. Fuck. And of vourse he wouldn't talk to me. There goes that friendship he was talking about. So then we went to these classes and we watched some orchestras perform. Most boring things ever. Oh yes! And Thursday night, at the social, Ashley, Elisa, Ivy, Bass Girl, Cameron, Hannah, Sara, and I were all jumping around and freaking with random people from random schools. It was so much fun. We had to dress nice everywhere we go.. except for on the plane. Um... lets see... anything else interesting.. We went to Hard Rock. That was nice. Then we went to the mall. It was Brian's birthday on Thursday and it was Elisa'a birthday on Saturday. And in my room everybody was on the phone or texting their boyfriends. While I tried to talk to a non-existant friend of mine. Whatever. He has a new love of his life. Fuck the world. Anyway. Um.... something else happened, but I'm not going to get into that right now. Other than that I cant really remember anything fun that happened. On the way back I sat next to Jessica and Ivy on the plane. We watched The Notebook and we realized how much Noah looks like Tim. Ha. Then in Denver Steps got mad at people, and told us we couldnt swtich seats. So I sat next to Dan and Elizabeth. Not so bad. And then I got home. And a bus took us back to the school. Yeah. Not so much fun. And now I'm sitting here at home.. not at school. Steps is going to be pissed tomorrow. Whatever.

So, about this guy. I became friends with the one guy, and he was really really nice. And we talked alot, and hung out alot, and he was just super sweet. And then like everybody in the whole world figured out that I liked him. No big deal. Then his friend told me that I shouldnt worry... and just to trust him. So that gave me a good um.. feeling. So then we were talking to the people in his room, along with him, on speaker phone for a long time. And he says that he likes this girl.. and she is in orchestra.. and he name starts with the third letter of the alphabet. So Sara, Jessica, and Mallory were all like.. Omg Carolyn..... it's you! And yeah I was happy, becuase I never thought that anybody would ever like me ever again. Anyway.. I was talking to a good friend of mine and told him that if this guy asks me out... I would tell him that I do like him.. I just dont want to go out with him right now because I would get so much crap and just the problems between Jack and I would just be worse. And my friend said that was a really good idea. So then the next day.. which happened to be Sunday, the day we leave. I find out.. wow... its the OTHER girl whose name starts with C that he like.. never used to talk to. Goodness gracious. Then two other good friends of mine decided to explain what happened. Let's just say he was confused. And he still picked the other girl. Wow. Sound fucking familiar? Gosh! Why do I always go for the guys who are confused and they always pick the other girl!? Proves that I am useless.. and I just cause problems. Pfft. And why should I stay alive? People constantly change my mind... but Just.... I cant stand any of this anymore... I hate boys. But I love just one... and I cant seem to get him out of my head. But i'm gone out of his forever..

it was alot of fun. minus the boy. i hate boys. especially confused ones. bleh.